Something Beautiful: Rejection

"The body treats rejection like physical pain."

It hurts. I can't breathe.  It's gut-wrenching. I can feel it in my bones...this being unwanted. All I've ever wanted is for you to want me, like I want you.

Why didn't you want me? 

I try to prove myself to you. I try to be good enough.

Maybe I was never good. I was never enough.

But I'll be good. I'll be enough, for me.

I try to tell myself that it's not me it's you. You're inadequate when it comes to love and acceptance.  But then I see it with my own eyes. I see what you're capable of...with others...And I just come back to the resolve that I am not enough....and then comes the frustration for even  caring. I'm the person who lets things go. Let this go.

"I am crying over the loss of something I never had. How ridiculous. Mourning something that never was - my dashed hopes, dashed dreams, and my soured expectations."

"It's time for you to take that power back. If you don't, it will find you.

It will find you when someone denies you....when someone interrupts you...(in the big things and the small).

For as long as someone else has that over you, it's going to find you. It's time to work through it."

 

My lovely friend, Britney ,and I created this project, Something Beautiful, where we will take everything we are and embrace it. We are excited to have some other artists participate with us. Continue the loop to see what these lovely ladies have to say about rejection. You can read Suzi's here!

 

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